mini update

lots of ups and downs in these last few days, testing my mom abilities! first the good news: sergio received permission to enter cuba, something he thought would never happen. so he decided to jet down there last minute to see his house one last time before the housing ministry puts another family in there. his mom left a year ago, so the state can now do what they want with it. he grew up in this house, which is also where his dad grew up, and his grandfather had his workshop. it's all he knew for the first 32 years of his life. we almost all decided to go, and even make a holiday out of it at playa pilar, but i am too busy with work contracts, and it's not easy to pick up and go with a baby. soon though, soon.

so here we are at home just us girls, enjoying our time together, getting organized, laundry done etc. i actually did an all nighter 2 nights ago to get a project off my plate, and though i felt exhausted as all hell, i felt good knowing i could then spend more time with the pili. well, last night after i put her to bed, she woke up a few hours later...on fire! she had a raging fever, and the room was dark, she was wimpering, and i had to scramble in the dark, holding her, and try to find her thermometer and tylenol...neither of which she loves. it usually requires me to breastfeed her and hold her tight while sergio performs the medical stuff. so here i was trying to do it all myself, gulp.

holding the syringe with the tylenol in one hand, and my other ONE hand trying to open her mouth and pin down her flailing arms all at the same time. well that did not work. the tylenol went all over the place, mostly on her pajamas. and i really have to say this, why on earth is all this baby medicine flavored to all hell? with fd+c red yellow etc. can that stuff really be good? i would prefer something tasteless that i can just add to her water or juice. anyway that's another rant. so she finally fell asleep and i popped the thermometer under arm for a few minutes, and snuck out to the light to read it...38.9...yikes. fortunately i got some medicine in her and her fever came down quickly.

through the night she rotated from her carriage to the bed at least 10 times last night. she was even wide awake at 4am and we watched some of her baby signing time video. i rocked her in the carriage, i breastfed her, played with her, cuddle her. nothing was working, she still couldn't sleep and moaned a lot. poor baby. i really missed sergio last night. 2 nights without sleep, i felt like a zombie, and kind of lonely not having someone with me to share my misery.

today pilar showed signs of improvement, and even ate most of her dinner. she even signed 'please' for the first time! and we had a few giggle sessions, rolling around on the bed together just being silly. i loved those moments. i hope tonight she can sleep better, so far so good. i am off to join her now, good night!